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Seriously, I'm not expecting anyone to read this so.. I guess I can write anything I want here.. Well, these past few months have been really hard. I really miss being part of the school band. Can't hear one single note of Estancia and not feel like I've just made the worlds biggest mistake.. I miss being a part of it all, miss falling-in with everyone else, the familiar faces, the familiar sounds, miss Wilson, Sylvia and Jie Ying's crazy jokes and their fooling around.. I wish time would go by faster just so I could get back to saying ''I'm part of the band'' again.. but if time really went by faster, where would everything else go? I won't be able to enjoy a normal teenage life.. I'm really droning on here, but no one's gonna read this anyway.. At least I've got some stuff to do at the moment to distract myself from that huge, gaping hole in my heart. Got a script to write for this drama competition, gonna be crazy busy with it cuz I'm holding 6 positions, I play Erik the Phantom in this crazy stage play, I'm the make-up artist, director, choreographer, dialogue coach and script writer. Why did I agree to do this?!?! Oh well, guess I can't turn back now, I'm in this too deep.
Been listening to loads of sad, manic-depressive songs lately, guess the emo in me has come out to play. Or to mope, more like. Save You, Perfect World (Simple Plan), Numb, Valentine's Day (Linkin Park), and We Might As Well Be Strangers (Keane) are just a few of them. And now I'm gonna ask the ultimate emo question: What's the meaning of life? *seriously, I'm not THAT depressed, I just listen to depressing songs.