WOOHOO!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!!!! Last day of school, baby!!! Its officially PARTAY TIIIME!!! Actually, it has been since the PMR ended but this is THE end of the school year, whats not to celebrate??!! YYAAAYYY.. I'm in the school library right now, writing this. Su Mei is next to me, searching the net. She read my blog!! Oh no.. I'm dead!!! The only reason why I chose to write all the personal stuff is cuz I never thought anyone from school would be reading it.. Well, its no use crying over spilt milk, I guess.. Anyways, i'm SUPER PSYCHED about going to Australia in about 2 weeks time! I look forward to going to Oz every year, and this year makes no exception. I can smile for days and days just thinking about the lovely weather there and the clothes i'm gonna buy and how friendly the people there are, and, of course, Australian hotties! Haha, i probably shouldn't be saying that considering who i'm crushing on right now.. Anyways, holidays, here I come! We were playing with glitter just now, me and my fellow classmate-Jonathan, we were crazy!! I've got purple glitter all over my face, arms, clothes and bag.. Everyone who saw me was, like, "whoa, what happened to you??" I had a right laugh! I guess i'm gonna miss my class, 3C, a lot next year, gonna miss my friends. We had such a great year! We talked, we laughed, we grumbled, we whined, we partied.. we did everything under the sun!! But life goes on, doesn't it? I least i've still got all the great memories in my head.. Well, gotta go now, I have a banner to decorate, i'm Penolong Ketua Kursus of the library and this is what I gotta do now. Happy Holidays! Ciao for now.. xoxo Haha, i'm in a VERY good mood today..

Mixed Emotions?!?!

Hmm.. Yeah sure I'm soooooooo happy that the PMR is FINALLY over, but its been a week now and my enthusiasam has faded a bit.. I mean, I was screaming and jumping and laughing on the day it ende but right now.. I'm feeling a bit lost.. This is a personal post.. hope no one from school reads this. Well, there's this guy.. this wonderful guy.. but he's left. Not oh-no-he's-dead left, just.. out of school. Staying home to study for the SPM. When he told me that I was heartbroken! I had such feelings for him!! Its wrenched away.. and all I wanna do is just curl up and die.. maybe then the sadness and pain will go away. It was last Friday. His last day. I was hoping that day would never come. But it did, and now its passed. Today marks a new era. The no-xxx era. I was praying and hoping this day wouldn't come, either. Now i feel its totally otiose to go to school, he's not even there anymore. There's not gonna be any rush for me cuz I won't even be seeing him.. I wish I could turn back time, 7 months before. If anyone has ever had any ideas or ways to do that, i'll be willing to be accused of plagiarizing them, just so I can go back to the start where it was all daisies and roses.. My friends say I think and talk about him way too much.. Well, guess what? Good thing you guys can't hear my thoughts cuz.. well, then you'd know how I fell. I'm slipping into total emo mode now.. Why did you have to leave so soon? Is this why they always teach us how to wave bye-bye when we're babies? Cuz deep down, adults know that we'll be saying goodbye to people for the rest of our lives?

Bwahahahaha

I'M BAAAAAAACKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haven't blogged in a while.. Glad to be doing what I love doing again.. Sadly, not for long- I've got trials coming up in 3 days. 3 DAYS!!! HHhhHHhEEEEEEEEeEeLLLllLllLLppPPPPPPPppP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lately I've been studying non-stop at home and laughing like a total maniac in school. The books are messing with my brains. Speaking of brains, Firdaus, I'm so sorry I haven't been coctacting you lately, I've been crazy busy- studying, appointments and stuff.. Sorry!! Cross my heart, I promise I'll call you after my trials.. Mext Friday afternoon ok?? Promise. Anyways, something extremely interesting happened on Friday night and Sunday afternoon (and night) but I can't say what for privacy reasons. But I can, however tell you guys what happened on Sunday night. There was this function, held by my primary school, SJK(C) Taman Rashna, and I wemt cuz my dad's an invited guest or something like that (he was in the school committee for about 8 years and is always donating loads of money to the school) and to tell the truth, I didn't wanna go at all and I somehow managed to keep myself from screaming and kicking and just generally acting like a total brat. Anyways, saw lots of my former teachers and Laura ans Svenja (a German exchange student, she's real nice!!) but the real fun only started towards the end of the dinner- all my fun stemmed from my cousin. She reached for a shrimp and hell, from my point of view, you will NOT believe how funny she looked!!! Her expression was SOOOOOOO unbelievable!! HAHAHAHAH!!!! Well, can't relly continue this post cuz i left it for like, 3 months, its October now. On to the next post!!!

You

To You, not all of you You, but You. YOU.
I think you should know right now that you are causing me a ma-hoo-sive deal of pain. You see, I've been harbouring this secret, extremely secret crush on you for exactly 115 days now, and no one in this world knows, cuz if I tell anyone, it'll most certainly be spread around the whole school in like, 4 seconds, and I can't let that happen. I can't let anyone know. Every one's gonna think I'm a skank and say that you'll never fall for me or some other crap for that matter. It's kinda like Romeo and Juliet, you know? My people won't accept you, your people might think I'm weird and look down on me.. But this definitely isn't forbidden love, though. Cuz I don't even have clue about how you feel about me. I guess that makes it a forbidden crush, then. Oh God, the pressure. Ever since I saw you, I can't stop thinking about you, everything I do, every breath I take, it all reminds me of you. And yet I can still feel you slowly slipping away, like a dream.. Something abstract. You're like smoke.. or fog.. Every time I try to reach out to touch you, like smoke, you waft away, away from my reach. The expression in your eyes, its unreadable. They're glassy, and I can tell that you've never truly opened up to anyone before. What are you so afraid of? I can clearly see that you've set up a wall around you and you only let those that are really, really, really close to you in, and even then, you're still not revealing everything to them. I can see through that facade, I know who you really are inside. You're just someone who wants to know who he can really trust and not betray you. I know I sound a lot like a hypocrite, what with this secret crush and all.. But besides this, I share a fair amount with others.. I'm babbling a lot here.. But please, just please, if this gets out, and you somehow find out about me, could you please try to understand how I feel? I've never had anyone stir up all these feelings inside me before, and boy, its not all good. Its bittersweet. Seriously, no one knows about this crush and I admit, I'm afraid of what you'll think about me. I'm not scared of what others think about me. Hell, my motto is "I'm anti-school spirit, anti-authority and anti-care what other people think." I long for you the way a child craves for a mother's touch, the way abused people all around the world crave for kindness and compassion; me without you is like a pen without ink, a poem without words and love without the warmth in it.

Jamie Campbell Bower

Ain't he the hottest thang you've ever seen??!! Ok, I've just turned into the kind of girl I hate the most. Boy-crazy and a total air-head. Someone please shoot me.

100% Adamized

tsOk, this is gonna sound really stupid but I admit it, I'm totally, 100%, absolutely obsessed with Adam Lambert. He's got an amazing voice (not to mention an amazing face with amazing features and an amazingly hot body).. It all started when Pamela played his version of Mad World on her phone. I got hooked instantly. I took all these Adam Lambert quizzes on Twitter and the results to every quiz just became more proof that I'm obsessed with him. What i've picked up from these quizzes is that I'm 100% Adamized, I'm a total Glambert, I've got Obsessive Adam Disease (there's no cure for it but that's ok cuz if drooling all over Adam is wrong then I don't wanna be right), I'm his number 1 fan, Ithink he's hot and a total cutie, I'm addicted to him, I know Adam better tahn Kris Allen, and that I'd pick Adam over his (dreaded / in the way) boyfriend any day. Muahaha. But don't worry Sebastien, you'll always be number 1 in my heart, no matter what!!

Aww.. how cute can a person get?


Those are some amazing nails..


He's so perfect he looks like a porcelain figure.


My fav photo in the world!!!!!


Sebastien!!

Planet Lazer

Ahhh.. Planet Lazer.. Mention those magic words and my eyes will probably glaze over while I think about the great times I had there.. I remember the first time we went there, only 6 people played- me, Danny, Pamela, Tharishini, Mr Helmi and Firdaus. Me, Danny and Pamela were in Group Blue, Firdaus and Tharishini in Group Yellow and Mr Helmi in Group Red, although none of us knew at first, and that's why throughout the whole game Tharishini never shot Mr Helmi (hahaha). It was kinda like a gym workout, in a way, you know, you run up and down, you keep squatting up and down and stuff... Anyways, the second time we went there, we went with the Spanish students and had a blast. I was in Group Blue with Zi Tong, Daniel, Luis, Christina, Christina and I've forgotten who else.. Anyways, it was far out, man!! Everyone came out drenched in sweat, hair wet and matted to their foreheads.. Seriously, it was definitely an "Oh snap!!" moment when the siren rung to inform us that our 20 minute (only) game was over, and even more of an "Oh double snap!!!!" moment when the time came for us to go home.. I didn't wanna go home cuz I was still so hyper from the adrenaline rush it was like I'd just dropped a bowling ball on my foot (actually, it was more like I'd just did some Crystal Meth, you know, being awake for 2 weeks straight)! The third day of Planet Lazer (which was also our last night in England boohoo) was kinda the same as the second day, except we had to play with this gang of adults and us kids ganged up to attack them. Aw hell, it was hilarious, watching the adults' expressions when we had them cornered. Wow. I never realized that running around like maniacs and holding plastic guns like 5-year-old could prove so fun!! Thinking back, I also realize how much I miss England, the Spanish students (not only Victor) and freedom, not having to worry about anything like exams or angry teachers or boring lessons and stuff.. I wish everyday were a Planet Lazer adventure..